You are the King of Silence

Nothing to update about, I still don't have a job (still looking) and I've been dumped by my 'boyfriend' (in parentheses because it only lasted like a month and neither of us were very emotionally invested in each other so it's no great loss) since my last post. School has been good, I've been getting my grind on and doing what I gotta to keep my head over water.


I just wanted to share this song which has been giving me so many a FEELINGS recently:

Sorry for the lack of activity on this blog, I've been busy doing actual adult things!

2 weeks ago I stopped working for the carnival since school was starting up and I couldn't travel with them anymore.

I also started dating my boss practically as soon as I stopped working for him. I know what you're thinking, 'this sounds like a fanfiction I've read online'. But no, I'm really dating my 30 year old, ex-boss. I don't want to talk about him too much on here since this is a pretty new relationship and, as I've mentioned before, my first ever. As time goes by and I get a little more comfortable and used to the idea of having a 'boyfriend' (oh god, I thought the day would never acually come) I might start to blog about him (and us) a bit. Or maybe not, whatever.

Thursday through Sunday I had a job cleaning upholstery at USD. Not much to say about the job, it was just a 4 day thing buuuuuuut I'm excited to say this job helped me make rent for september! I will officially be living on my own for another month.

Slowly but surely it seems like I'm being integrated into the world of adults, paying rent and acquiring a boyfriend? Kids can't do that kind of stuff!

Sexual harrasment in the work area is not a joke

So as soon as I made my previous post I realized I should probably specify on the altercation I had at work. 


It has been dealt with and I'm not embarrassed about it so I think here's a good place to talk about it and sexual harassment at work in general.


First of all, sexual harassment is never OK. It's defined as 'the persistent unwelcome directing of sexual remarks andlooks, and unnecessary physical contact at a person, usually awoman, esp in the workplace', as I'd mentioned in my earlier post everyone at the carnival is very friendly so I didn't get too freaked out when he'd put his hand on my shoulder/back even though it did make me a little uncomfortable.


I work in the buoy pitch (sometimes the Duck Pond, which is the big money maker) and he works in the water race, and on Saturday he thought it would be appropriate to make a joke about me 'loving to be wet' over the microphone.


All I could think to do was turn around and tell him 'Stop, that's disgusting'. He realized that he made a mistake and that we are not on that level and tried to make non sexual jokes over the mic to get me to laugh it off or something. Luckily only one other guy was there to hear his 'joke' because otherwise I'm sure that would have made me a lot more upset than it did.


When my boss came around to check up on me and see if everything was cool I told him what happened, and he said he'd deal with it. I didn't get an official apology from the guy, which would have been nice but definitely not necessary.


I know this guy has made these kinds of jokes about the other women that he works with and I know a lot of them let it slide (because they probably think it's no big deal and that these jokes don't really hurt anyone) so I don't think this incident is really going to change the way he acts towards his coworkers but at least I did my part and feel a little better that he'll at least leave me alone.

Everyday I'm hustling

Since last updating I've continued to work at the carnival (Wednesday-Sunday), which is tough but is quick , easy money. If you know how to hustle. I don't want to make it seem like I'm a pimp or anything but I'm pretty good at getting people to spend money at my booth just by smiling at them and being friendly, that's kind of hustling right?

That's my super legit work polo

Working for the carnival has been great so far, pretty much every one there is friendly and very, very nice so I haven't had any trouble fitting in. There's only one time I've had trouble so far, which was when a male coworker made a very inapropriate joke about me over the mic at his booth. I told my boss and he said he'd deal with it, which I assume he did since the guy has since stopped making those kinds of jokes and tries to be 'gentlemanly' (it makes him seem like more of a pushover imo) since. I didn't get a formal apology though, which I would have liked.


I had a bizzare interview at Pizza Hut yesterday which literally lasted about 7 minutes. They called me 2 hours later to say I didn't get the job, which lead me to believe they'd already found someone great before interviewing me and were just trying to be polite. OH WELL. I'm filling out some online applications right now.


I've also registered for the local community college and have a counselors appointment on Tuesday to help me choose calsses since I'm too dumb to do it by myself. So there's that.

Today I worked with roadies.

So far my job hunt has been unsuccessful but my sister was able to hook me up with a gig at a carnival for the weekend, starting today.

In case you're wondering what carnies are like I can give you a short description. They're like theater kids (which can be good if you yourself are a theater kid or bad if you're not a theater kid) but older, at the ripe age of 18 I was the youngest one there.

They all smoke, every single one of them.  I don't hate people that smoke, it's their right to do what they want but since everyone there smokes they go ahead and do it right in the middle of all the commotion forcing everyone else to inhale their second hand smoke. As you can imagine I was not a happy carnie.

I only worked 3 hours today, but they were 3 long hours of hard physical labor.

I won't get paid until the end of the weekend when all the work is done, so far I've got $20.

The new blog of old Krisitn...a

This blog started off as a senior year English project, when the project ended and my group got our 'A' I was reluctant to delete it because of the sweet blog name we'd picked out. And now I finally think I've found a use for it, a personal blog for me to use. Original, I know.

At first it seemed like a great idea because I'm really a cool chick but then I couldn't think of a single thing to write in here. I came to the realization that I am, in fact, a loser. I don't want to get too long winded so I'll sum it up for you:

In case you're wondering how much of a loser I am: This is the only boy that will willingly kiss me

• I've left my mother's house at the age of 18 with 2 1/2 months because of relationship problems I had with her
• I'm unemployed
• I'm currently unregistered for community college (I had to drop the one I was registered in because of the move) (and the fact that I'm going to community college is pretty lame in itself)
• I've never had a boyfriend

This sums up my so far, pretty pathetic life, I'll be using this blog to post about my ~feelings~ but also to document on my job hunt, school and pop/nerd culture.

Flashbacks

The whole novel pretty much has to do with flashbacks all throughout. Do you think this helps better establish the overall mood and tone of the book or do you think it just confuses the reader on what is going on. Personally I get confused really easily when I am reading it and I have to backtrack to try and find out what the heck is going on in the book.

Naoko's sickness

In the novel Naoko is very attached to the song norwegian wood, in case you haven't heard it here are the lyrics:

I once had a girl, or should I say, she once had me... 
She showed me her room, isn't it good, norwegian wood? 

She asked me to stay and she told me to sit anywhere, 
So I looked around and I noticed there wasn't a chair. 

I sat on a rug, biding my time, drinking her wine 
We talked until two and then she said, "It's time for bed" 

She told me she worked in the morning and started to laugh. 
I told her I didn't and crawled off to sleep in the bath 

And when I awoke, I was alone, this bird had flown 
So I lit a fire, isn't it good, norwegian wood

I hadn't read the lyrics when I first read the book because I didn't want it to affect the way I read the book since I assumed it somehow related, and I was right! The lyrics are a kind of parallel to the different relationships Toru has in the book. With Naoko when he sleeps with her when they get drunk and with Midori when they have dinner and watch the house burn down. I still don't see how this song is important to Naoko or why she likes it so much but I'm sure it will reveal itself by the end. Do you guys have any ideas as to why she might like it so much?

Numb

I think the reason Toru seems so calm, collected and cool to the other characters is that Kizuki's suicide has left him a little numb. He doesn't react the way a normal character would in the situations he's faced with. For example, when Midori tell's him she's willing to die in her home if it catches fire he just passively accepts it. Do you think this will affect him or that he'll continue to live as normally as he can?

Nagawasa

Why do you think that Nagawasa is brought up alot after Watanabe speaks about Kizuki? Do you think he is just trying to show the different types of people he associated himself with or just to show that he is innocent compared to other people around him?

Storm trooper

I think it is really interesting how Toru spends so much time focusing on his roommate and tells the readers everything about it him so we feel like we know who Storm trooper is. Why do you think the author does this? Do you think the other wants you to feel like you know everyone?

Kizuki's Suicide

It's pretty obvious that both Naoko and Toru were both deeply affected by Kizuki's suicide but so far Toru has avoided talking about it. In the novel he focuses so much time describing his relationships with other characters and he even talks in detail about characters that play a much smaller role in his life (like storm trooper) so it seems weird. Do you think he'll finally get to talking about Kizuki or that he'll just avoid the subject throughout the novel?

20 year gap

Do you guys think Watanabe is a reliable narrator? He takes time out of the beginning of the novel to explicitly mention that he has trouble remembering Naoko but at the same time despite the 20 years that have gone by he seems to remember much more than a normal person would be expected to. So far he seems reliable but do you think perhaps we should take what he says about his college days with a grain of salt?

xoxo, ya girl tina

Norwegian Wood

Do you guys think that the way Haruki Murakami set up the book so that the main character is in the airplane thinking about the past is effective in creating the scenario of the story? Like with the use of all the imagery and the flashbacks.